My life has been a revolution lately.

This year, I've been feeling great. About the work that I'm doing, about my life. I've been really energized and excited to work on things, and it has been absolutely beautiful.

It started out with just thinking about SPROG. Remembering the fantastic feeling of working with so many wonderful people, and the inspiration I walked away with. I re-connected with Lance and Juliana, and I signed up for both Power Shift and I applied to be a SPROG trainer next summer. I've also been working heavily with Vagina Monologues, which has been great. So far, I've got at least two organizations that look like they may want to co-sponsor the event, which is great. We need all the money we can get.

I've also been working with SPROUT, a group on campus that's trying to get a campus garden and do food justice stuff with it/personal sustainability. The energy there is so fantastic, and I look forward to those meetings every week. It's absolutely beautiful, and I have come to really love the people in that group.

As the energy has been building, I've felt a distinct disconnect with my academics. Maybe it's because I'm doing all of this on top of only one class, and that's Shakespeare, and I feel like we could be going much more in-depth with it. I'm not sure. But there has been a very real feeling that this point in my life is just that: a centrifical point, a place of change, and shifting.

Then I discovered how awesome Green Corps is. It's a year of activist training in the environmental movement/working for different groups around the country on their campaigns. I'd be paid $23,000-something, and I'd be able to get right into some sort of green movement or group.

All of this has been leading up to my own personal revolution.

I don't want to work against violence generally. I don't want to work at a battered women's shelter, or a rape crisis center, or even at a feminist organization. Maybe I could work at a feminist organization, but what I'm really excited about is the environment. What I'm really feeling jazzed about doing is working against climate change, working for sustainable lifestyles, and indigenous rights and natural philosophy. It's a bigger goal, but a supportive one. This is such a huge time for humanity; we have to come to terms with how we're connected to and using the earth. This lifestyle cannot continue.

Of course, this means so many things. It means that my study abroad is now completely changed (I had been doing a study abroad program that had to do with violence, and now that won't really work anymore), and so it's been a mind-reeling day of trying to figure out if I can change my social justice concentration to something like "Environmental Justice and Indigenous Rights."

The killer? It looks like it will be possible.

I haven't figured out study abroad stuff yet, but as of right now, it's looking like I would go to the rainforest in either Brazil or Australia to study natural and human ecology. The one in the Amazon looks more up my alley - it's more focussed on the social issues of poverty that surround the rainforest - and I'm pretty sure that's where I'll go. But Australia would be really, really cool.

It's a huge switch. But trust me, it makes sense. The only thing is that I have to wait until the fall semester of my senior year. I don't want to go to a rainforest during the rainy season. That would be stupid, and make traveling exceedingly difficult.

Honestly, if I were to start college over, I would probably do Environmental Studies as a major (with Anthropology as a "concentration") and get a Religion minor. So far, 2009 has also been a year of spiritual questing. I feel much more at peace, and also like I'm on the right path.

These changes are big, but they're good. My life has shifted - I want to do what will make me happy, and I know that this will make me more happy. I want to embrace this person that I'm becoming, and this is the best way I can do that.

I hope I can sleep now. I'm very tired, but haven't been able to sleep well this week. I would love to just crawl into bed, and not worry about it.